Who I am

I stand at a crossroads in life, knowing that the future I imagined is no longer there for me.  My dreams have been shattered. The course of my life is about to take off in a new direction. But what direction do I go? I  don't know where to begin, how to start over or where I am supposed to be.

Like each human in this universe, I have a unique grouping of skills and giftings that could be put to use to benefit others, but I need to find the others who are meant to be in my life.

My sweet husband is walking this journey with me and assuring me that all the pieces of my broken life will fall into place when they are meant to. It's hard to believe. It's hard to let go of what was. It's hard to walk into the world of the unknown and figure out once again who I am.

A big part of who I have been had been based on what I do for a living, but now that season has come to a close. I loved being that person, but I in that role I was perpetually mistreated by others. I am stepping away to preserve what little bit of self is left inside of me, and to live a life with boundaries that say no to being trampled and destroyed.

I don't know where to go, I feel lost and mostly alone.  I know I have some good friends and a loving family. I have a God who loves me more than I can conceive. Yet I don't know where our finances will come from. I don't know how we will manage.  I don't know what I will be doing with the rest of my life.  I only know that I am here, now in this in-between place waiting for revelation.