Worthy of Love

Is there even such a thing? The phrase worthy of love was a question I began asking as a kid? Am I worthy of love? Even from a very young age, I was keenly aware that love is not given equally to all children or adults. Some are loved from birth while others are rejected from birth. Some are loved by peers, others rejected by peers. So I set out to discover if I was worthy of love at as wee little girl. I decided that that young age that I most certainly was not, but was determined to try to earn love somehow. Well, we all know that love can not be earned.

When a child hasn't experienced the unconditional love of a parent it's really hard for them to fathom God's love. So I believed that's His love was just as unattainable, but still, I foolishly set out to earn it.

As adults it's easy to fall back into the trappings of childlike beliefs, trying to earn God's love and wanting to be worthy of it.

Here is the reality. There is nothing I can do or say to be worthy of anyone's love, least of all God's. What? You argue.. but seriously. IF "LOVE" IS BASED ON WORTH THEN IT IS NOT LOVE!!!

I will never be enough but yet I am fully loved by the God who created love. You see Love surpasses worth and merit.
We treat love like it is money. Money can be earned and traded for many things but when you have none your net worth is considered zero.

Love is the opposite when I am have nothing left but love, I have everything. God's love isn't like the twisted version I constructed as a child. I couldn't earn it by being good, doing chores, or serving. It had to be freely given by choice.

Each person chooses whom to love and whom to reject. I think it's more common to be rejected by others than to be loved.

But God chooses to love despite all the reasons others reject us. We can't earn his love or deserve it but we can choose, will we accept it or reject it. We all fail, we are all imperfect, we are all in the same human condition of being extremely fallible.

Yet, in the midst of it ... True love never holds out a measuring stick instead it embraces, transforms and makes a way.

I was rejected by mankind, even within my mother's womb but God's love whispers " you are mine, come as you are, I have made a way in my great Love for you. It is unchanging, unfathomable and filled with Grace."