The Power of Love

Looking into the eyes of the almost two-year-old me, I see such pain. She was rejected by her own parents, abused in ways that leave permanent marks on a little girl’s soul. I spent so many years wondering why this baby girl was considered a disposable worthless nothing, used to wipe up man’s shame.

I will never be able to understand the cruelty that led to such pain but there is one thing I have come to understand clearly. NO matter who defiled her, who beat her, who abandoned her, or what horrific things were done to this precious child, she was LOVED by God. He redeemed her from the brokenness and shame. He spends her lifetime, washing over her with grace and mercy, forgiving her for her many suicidal attempts, forgiving her for the times when the pain was so deeps she thought forgiveness would be impossible, forgiving her for agreeing with the enemy in thinking she deserved to be beaten, molested, rejected and destroyed.

He sings songs of grace over her and they ring through her heart like a healing melody that leaves the painful scars so far behind that at times they feel like a distant memory. He is the Healer, the Great I am. Many people think that a person can never be whole if they experienced more than a decade and a half of sexual assault, physical abuse, emotional and mental cruelty before marrying a man who nearly cost her and her children’s their own lives due to the horrific abuse and torment.

After 32 years in total of abuse, I didn't think I could live another day and never dreamed there would be a day when I could feel whole, feel loved, feel secure and be able to walk with others through their own healing journey. But....... I was wrong. God heals the parts that we think are unhealable. God restores in ways we never imagined. . If we are willing to let him into the parts of our brokenness that are the most painful, he will transform those ugly wounds into something beautiful.... I encourage you to try it... because His Love is powerful. I am redeemed. Thank you, God!