Letting go and Letting God lead

We spend our lives, grasping for control. We want things in order, and if they aren’t, we feel out of control. We write lists and give detailed instructions. We try to convince others of our perspectives and defend our honor at all cost because to keep silent in opposition feels powerless. 

God seems to enjoy to placing us in positions where we need to give up all our control; When health fails and all we can do is pray for that miracle when finances are tight and there seems to be no way to survive the crisis. When people come against us and wrongfully accuse us when our children fall and make wrong choices. We can’t control any of these things.  

Oh, don’t get me wrong we can try but trying leads only to a deeper sense of helplessness, which in turn can make us try harder to control something...... anything in our lives. That's when we starting creating human messes. 

The reality is that God wants us to be completely dependent on him, LIKE A CHILD.  He wants us to stop focusing on our capabilities and successes, and start focusing on the fact that without God we can do Nothing!       (John 15:5)

We can not lead, or teach, or bring God glory, or serve effectively. We can not fix messes the mess our lives get into. In fact, without God, we don't even exist. God places us in situations to shape us. He places our leaders over us. He chooses the weather and decides whether or not a person is healed, or even lives. 

I have tried to control my workload, my health, my stress, and my kid's behavior, but God is teaching me a powerful lesson. He wants complete devotion and complete dependence! It's a lesson that could not come at a better time in my life, as I struggle by feeling overwhelmed with powerlessness. 

The only thing God wants me to control is my devotion to him. He wants me to saturate my life with scripture and walk in His truth, while I let him take complete control of my messy life so that new life can be breathed into it. 

I am so thankful to have a God who cares about ME......; one of the millions of ordinary people on this crazy planet. And not only does He care, but He desires deep intimacy enabling me to hear his voice as He leads me.  So this is my commitment. I will saturate my heart with God's word. I will devote my love to the One who gives me breath, and I will follow wherever He leads me next. 

This is my commitment!