There is nothing as powerful, moving or all consuming as the love of God when it truly ignites in your heart.
I'm sure we all have dry seasons, where we go through the motions of loving God, but it feels empty of course. I have sometimes prayed fervently that God would reignite that first love. I've learned that he answers that prayer!
It is when I truly began to understand, and experience the depths of his love, that it grew and grew inside of me. As His Love sank to the depths of my empty , dry heart, it covered the most tender parts with a love so sweet and pure. It began to ruminate in my spirit until it bubbled up and overflowed.
I can't understand such love because, in my brokenness, I simply do not know how to love well. I try of course, but He knows that I struggle to trust, struggle to recieve and struggle to believe I'm worthy of love. But God doesn't need my approval or capacity of loving well to love Me well in the first place. He loved first! I just need to breathe it in deeply and let it saturate the very cells of my body.
He's been transforming my heart from the inside. It is His incredible love that is changing me. It transforms how I think. It's enveloping every part of my being, filling me with joy! Because I've earned it??? No, certainly not! Because I'm good? Nope, not a chance.
He transforms hearts because it's who he is. He loved us first.
It is undeserved, pure, and inconceivable love. It burns so brilliantly that it shines right out of us like a beacon on a dark night. It isn't showy, no His love is so sweet and beautiful that it brings me to tears at the mere thought of it.
Because of His love, I am truly undone... and that's how it was meant to be all along.
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